I wanted harmonious relationships in my life, they appeared. I wanted my dream job, I received it. I wanted time with my friends, they came to visit. After a year of living in confrontation, it was refreshing to have amazing people coming into my life. I made new friends who I feel I have known for ages and reconnected with friends that I had forgotten. As more positive people came into my life, the negative feelings slowly disappeared and great things began to happen. As the months went by, my apartment became a home. A home where I cook and entertain. A home in which I celebrated thanksgiving, my birthday, and my new job with great friends. My home now welcomes my friends from close and from afar.
Cooking for my people on my birthdayAfter a year of being stagnant in Germany, I began to travel. This last year, I've been to places such as San Francisco, Munich, Vienna, Stockholm, Bavaria, Copenhagen, and New York. By traveling I met amazing people and reconnected with people who are very special in my life. It was hard for me to imagine staying in Europe after graduate school. Four years and I am still here, it has become my home. This country has been a graduate school, not only academically, but it has given me many lessons in life.
I have lived abroad previously in Asia while serving with the military but living away from the blanket of the US government was a new experience. The Marine Corps was always there to register my car, find me an apartment, and pay my utilities. Being in Brussels, without that support scared me at first, but it made me more independent. It forced me to learn another language and to truly assimilate to a new culture.
As my friends and family back at home look at my pictures they ask me why I am so happy. They ask if I have a boyfriend and some are shocked that I say no. I spent a year and a half denying who I was due to another person's interpretation of me. It took me a year to date me again, buy me nice things, and take me on vacation. Happiness comes from being in a loving relationship with yourself. A year later, my relationship with Jessica is going fabulously. Anything extra that may come is just the cherry on top.